Monday, 17 May 2010

15.05.2005


This date is carved in my heart and makes it bleed. Five years later the bleeding is still here and will never stop. As we will never stop loving you, wonderful lovely boy taken away from us in the bloom of your teenage years for a reason we still don’t understand. A medical complication of a very silly food poisoning. A burger place I will hate forever, because it killed you. A frantic journey by bus, train, plane, coach again and then car to get to you when it was already too late, when the only thing left for me to do was to kiss your beautiful but cold forehead. You were the first baby in the family, the dearest boy ever born for us, you were a bit mine as well, as you were a bit of your cousins too when they were born and got to know their wonderful big cousin. You would have been 20 years old now, maybe at Uni, driving a car, loving a girlfriend, coming to England to see us and to watch your beloved Chelsea, being with us. Instead, all of this was taken away from as you were taken away from us. My dear wonderful Fabrizio, we will love you forever!

13 comments:

Steve said...

So, so sorry - which seems such an empty, trivial thing to say. My heart goes out to you and yours.

Tim Atkinson said...

Oh Antonella, I had no idea... How awful, I'm so sorry.

Jan said...

Oh ...Bless you ...love Jan xx

Jean said...

How very sad, what a wonderful young man he must have been. x

Hilda said...

My heart bleeds with you, my dear Antonella. I cannot even begin to imagine how it feels…

Kia said...

Oh, Antonella... my heart goes out to you and yours. A big hug!

Nicky said...

I am so sorry for your loss, my heart goes out to you, it really does x

Darla said...

Such a tragic thing to happen. I'm sorry to read of your loss.

Darla

Kia said...

A big *hug* Antonella.

The Small Fabric Of My Life said...

Such raw pain. Still. It is clear he was loved.

Kia said...

Ciao Antonella, ti ho appena mandato un'e-mail, ma visto che il nostro web-provider negli ultimi gg ha fatto i "capricci" e alcune mail sono andate perse, ti ringrazio di cuore anche qui per la bellissima sorpresa! :D
Royal Mail ci sta facendo rimpiangere Poste Italiane!! ...ma lo leggerai nella mail. Buona notte e grazie ancora di cuore! Ciao!

Sandra said...

How dreadful for you Antonella, I had no idea...I`m so sorry you lost your beautiful boy.

Love Sandra xxx

lunarossa said...

@All of you: Thankyou for your very kind words. Reading my entry I've just realized that I might have been misunderstood. Fabrizio was not my son, but my nephew and godchild, although I loved him (and still love him) as he were mine as well. He was the first child born in my family and we all had a special relationship with him. He was my son's best friend and my son hasn't been the same since Fabrizio died. Thanks again.