Coming back home here in the UK after some time spent in my Italian “home” always throws me into a turmoil. It makes me wonder why I bother to come back here when I feel so happy there. But there is not my real home anymore as I live here. But my heart is not here, is it? My heart is where the people I love are. But the people I love are both here and there. So where is actually home? Here and there, everywhere. Or maybe nowhere? It's not a philosophical question, it’s just the way I feel: torn. Since I left Italy to live abroad. Half of my life away from home. Half of my life at home. It will get better. It always does. Eventually.
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Nothing wrong with having 2 homes but I know what you mean... there's something about a single place, a single hearth where we belong. I guess the only solution is to carry the experience of home in one's heart.
I know exactly how you feel. I lived in California in my Twenties and still have a life 'waiting for me' there but my life 'has' to be here! I love both places and feel at home in both but would much prefer to live there!!! xx
I know what you mean, it's the reason why my life has been in standby for the last...pfff... 5 or so years! It's just so hard when you have time to think it over and over again...it just gets harder! :/
I can imagine how you feel, Italy is such a special country too. I hope you feel better very soon, you're in thoughts.
Ciao Antonella, I so know how you feel! I have not been away for so long, but I keep thinking of Italy as HOME :) I do like it here, but it's not the same and I don't think it will ever be. For you it sure it's more "strange" 'cos you have your family here and there :) We are lucky to live in an era with airplanes, aren't we? ;)
Hope your little Italian getaway was super! Looking forward to more pics :D
*hugs* and smiles your way.
I wondered where you were. Having two places to call home is surely filled with both pain and pleasure.
Darla
Not sure it changes after you have left your homeland. What is home after time away. I don't know any more.
I can just imagine how you feel. Missing the ones that you love. I honestly hate living in Italy, I hate so many of the things happening around me. But all the people I love are here and I always want to come back as soon as I can when I am far from home. Though, while I'm travelling, I happen to appreciate the different civilized realities other countries have. But you come from the North of Italy, quite different from the South, where I live. They are closing our hospitals, they are reducing the expenses on school and education giving us teachers classes of 30/32 pupils each( and you know what our kids are like!), reducing the number of lessons per week, most universities don't work properly, no funds for research or even road maintenance, and what about litter? ... do I have to go on? I just hate living here. I have been avoiding watching TV for a couple of years now. And , I'm sure you noticed, I accurately avoid writing about Italy and our politicians on my blog. But I do sympathize with your missing your family and friends. BIG HUG, A.
Just popped in to wish you a lovely Monday! I read Maria Grazia comment and I do feel the same for Scotland about litter, politicians, road/city maintenance and school. The more places I see outside Italy, the more I do appreciate it.
Zeno and I hope to go back "home" for Christmas. What about you? Where will you spend the holiday? :) *hug*
@Steve: You’re perfectly right, Steve. Home is in my heart as home for me is the people I love and they are everywhere with me. I’m waiting for your novel….
@Emma: What a wonderful experience! If I win the lottery I'd move to San Francisco without any delay. And you can come to visit....
@Jorgelina: My life has been on standby for the last 25 years…so my advice to you is to try to snap out of it before it’s too late and you’re stuck in …limbo…Thanks for stopping by. Ciao!
@Elizabeth: I feel better, thanks. Just the idea that my parents will be here soon for Xmas makes me feel happier…Thanks for your comment. Kisses to Buddy!
@Kia: Hi sweetie, it will always difficult for us “emigranti”. Let’s just hope we will be able to hop here and there for a very long time. As I wrote above, my parents are coming here for Christmas and maybe my cousins too so I will have a "slice" of Italy here too. Take care. Hugs.
@Darla: Sometimes it feel more pain and little pleasure. But yes, I’m lucky to have dear friends both here and there….
@Mo: I don’t know either, Mo. But after all this time, I think I agree with Steve above, home is in your heart and it does not depend on places but on people. Ciao bella!
@MG: My dear, my heart bleeds reading your comment as I know it is totally true and it really hurts. It hurts even more watching from the outside our poor country going down and down with very few prospects of recovery…I don’t think it’s a matter of North and South of Italy, it’s getting too much everywhere in Italy and something needs to change. In spite of all this I love Italy, it's the most beautiful country in the world and it is just a pity that we Italian can’t manage to do anything concrete to save it. What it’s even sadder for me is that also the UK has started going that way too. Hard times are coming. Bacioni!
Hi there-home is where the heart is, for sure! Hope you are well and having a good week, thanks for the lovely comment! x
Ciao Antonella, un salutino dalla piovosa Scozia :) Si gela da queste parti, proprio come in inverno (-4C l'altra notte). Sarebbe tempo da bagna caoda. Oggi mattinata movimentata, la polizia ha fatto un gran casino dall'alba e poco fa hanno portato via due tipi in manette. Pero', che bello avere due criminali nel condominio... un abbraccio forte, buon weekend!
That's not fair! I don't know what Kia wrote! LOL
Have a great week!
Hello Antonella! We are doing a wee "Happy Snappy Tour" and we just wanted to thank you for visiting us, much appreciated.
Have a very happy start of the Holiday Season! Best regards from Finland and Scotland. ;D
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